Misery (Mastered for Headphones) - EP

by Terry Blade

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1.
The Unloveable 02:59
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It doesn't work and I can't figure it out About to go berserk with my own self doubt This type of thing I can't shirk--it's part of me Is it really just a quirk to question my own ability I spend my days unsure Deeply insecure Don't show it on my face Drowning in my disgrace Tell me who's gonna love me like this A soul in constant crisis Future is not the brightest Self imposed with silence Tell me who's gonna love me like this A soul in constant crisis Future is not the brightest Self imposed with silence I try to cope with my unhappiness Tell myself a joke, but I forget the rest Abysmal, losing hope, wearing an empty smile At the end of my rope, to hang on doesn't seem worthwhile I spend my days unsure Deeply insecure Don't show it on my face Drowning in my disgrace Tell me who's gonna love me like this A soul in constant crisis Future is not the brightest Self imposed with silence Tell me who's gonna love me like this A soul in constant crisis Future is not the brightest Self imposed with silence
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The Mentally ill 02:53
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I’m so unhappy Bitter and nasty That’s why I’m incapable of love This smile is phony And inside I’m lonely That’s why There’s no cheering me up Turn you to stone If you look in my eyes Forevermore The life in you dies In my prison of war I go to sleep angry And wake up so cranky That’s why I’m down on my luck Hopeless and sour 'Cause I aint got no power And that’s why I’m down in this rut Turn you to stone If you look in my eyes Forevermore The life in you dies In my prison of war They don’t make a pill For this pain that I feel And that’s why I’m mentally ill
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The Widow 02:49
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Facetime on the phone So I don’t feel alone When you’re not here I know in my heart We won’t always be this far apart My dear But I sit here feeling blue And crying Another hard day without you I’m not a weeping willow Just a grieving widow Who has lost her superhero I’m not a weeping willow Just a grieving widow Who has lost her superhero You left so suddenly Had no time to make a recovery So much to do Carried you in a hearse Who knew that you’d be first I had no clue Now I sit here feeling gray And sobbing That type of pain just don’t go away I’m not a weeping willow Just a grieving widow Who has lost her superhero Many years and no relief Spend the rest of my days in grief I mourn just to move on Still used to you being around Heavy is the head that wears your crown But now you’re gone I’m not a weeping willow Just a grieving widow Who has lost her superhero I’m not a weeping willow Just a grieving widow Who has lost her superhero
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The Broken 03:47
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If I wasn’t broken Would you have even noticed me If I weren’t soft-spoken Would I be your cup of tea And if I had not shattered, Would you have seen me entirely I try to ignore what caught your eye The tragedy inside Not explicit but implied Needing someone to misguide You’re only open When I am broken Among those you’ve chosen A moment’s devotion You’re only open When I am broken Among those you’ve chosen A moment’s devotion If I weren’t so needy Would you know that I exist And if I weren’t so greedy Would I even make your list? And once I’ve signed your treaty I know your love for me won’t persist I try to ignore what caught your eye The tragedy inside Not explicit but implied Needing someone to misguide You’re only open When I am broken Among those you’ve chosen A moment’s devotion You’re only open When I am broken Among those you’ve chosen A moment’s devotion Broken Broken
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The Other Side 03:27
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Better not be my friend I see the bad things you do to yours Just using them to open doors Better not be my kin I see just how you treat your blood Toss them all into the mud Better not be my love Be the one whom you accuse The only one that you abuse Better not get too close I know about all those you’ve burned Consider that lesson learned Stay away Keep me at bay Increase the distance And don’t delay Stay away Keep me at bay Increase the distance And don’t delay You and I will just collide Sleight of hand and tricks you’ve tried Can’t be near where you reside Standing on the other side The other side The other side Better not be my ground I know I can’t depend on you Before too long, I’ve fallen through Better not be around Locking eyes just to ignore Hating you down to your core Better not be aloof You can’t escape the consequence By leaving us in despondence Better not make a move Darkening the path well lit Never see the end of it Stay away Keep me at bay Increase the distance And don’t delay Stay away Keep me at bay Increase the distance And don’t delay You and I will just collide Sleight of hand and tricks you’ve tried Can’t be near where you reside Standing on the other side The other side The other side
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Tick Tock (The Lonely) 03:37
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Time is finite like an hourglass Every grain of sand encapsulates our past The days are shorter now The weeks go by so fast If we don't slow it down, then we'll never last Tick Tock Running out the clock The door is gonna lock No matter how much you knock Your company is only for the lonely We can't get them back Once our days are poured We'll just waste away Until there's nothing more You think the sunshine Shall replace the rain But no amount of joy San overcome this pain (Pain Pain Pain) (Pain Pain Pain) I wait for you to be with or against me You must decide and you must do it quickly Longing for true and indefinite closure No need to begin if it's already over (Over Over Over) Longing for true and indefinite closure No need to begin if it's already over I'm patient so I'm virtuous Intolerant of the scandalous There's only you--never us Loving you is not glamorous (not glamorous) Not glamorous Not glamorous There's only you--never us Loving you is not glamorous Tick Tock Running out the clock The door is gonna lock No matter how much you knock Your company is only for the lonely Although it's come to this It's time for you to choose Call it a win-win Keep what you stand to lose (You stand to lose) (You stand to lose) Once choice leads you to me The other to despair Delay by just one second Your choices won't be there (They won't be there no no) (They won't be there no no) Only one right answer Hope you don't get it wrong Better hurry it up Because we don't have too long (We don't have too long) (We don't have too long) (Tick Tock) Tick Tock Running out the clock The door's gonna lock No matter how much you knock Your company is only for the lonely

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Misery is a 6-track Folk, R&B & Soul EP by singer/songwriter Terry Blade which explores themes of mental illness and loss, particularly the sinister effects of loneliness and depression on the human psyche.

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released May 8, 2020

Written, Performed, and Executive Produced By: Terry Blade
Published By: Terry Blade
Artwork By: Terry Blade
Mixing/Mastering: Terry Blade

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Terry Blade Chicago, Illinois

Terry Blade is a singer-songwriter. A multi-genre artist, his musical work is grounded in his experience as a black queer artist.

Since his 2020 debut, he has won more than 75 awards and nominations for his music. He has drawn comparisons to artists such as Meshell Ndegeocello, Macy Gray, and Antony and the Johnsons.

He was born and raised in Washington, DC, and resides in Chicago, IL. ... more

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